So every day this week, we've made a new kind of knitwear, tank top Monday, V-neck Tuesday, raglan Wednesday then it's hoodie Thursday and finish everything Friday because I still have to top stitch on all of the hems and necklines. Whew! I don't know how cut out I am for manual work, I am not fast enough. I've gotten faster and I almost finished the Raglan today but I think I'm a better thinker than a seamstress. There's a pro to every con, so by 1 o-clock I'm making mistakes but by 6pm I'm researching and brainstorming and loving what I'm making. It's not about speed, it's about passion and determination.

Completing tasks is all about doing, doing ,doing and getting tangible results which is satisfying; instant gratification. Thinking about what you really want and who you are and facing those thoughts, that requires alone time and analyzing, it's not as easy and quick to produce a result from that. That's why people can throw themselves into work when they're feeling bad about something, action is a perfect distraction.

 
I know I can style an outfit that will make girls drool. I'm just a doubter, I've always doubted that I was good at anything so I held myself back with that fear. I remember when I used to play violin, I was always nervous to play passionately because I didn't want to make an error. It's the same at college, I'm always unpicking and questioning and carefully sewing everything. I just never associated that with my nature because it doesn't parallel my personality, I'm not cautious socially at all. So I'm trying to let go of the fear a little bit. My V neck was beautiful and then today, the sleeve didn't meet the side seam as I would have wanted but you know what? The other one did so I'm letting it be.

"The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, and wiser people so full of doubt."

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